Monthly Archives: March 2005

He’s here. Right now he’s here at my house. And I just completely lost it. Sobbing, crying. He wanted to talk about finances. What the fuck is wrong with him? I just had one of the shittiest days topped off … Continue reading →

I wanna have a little fling. I know I’m not supposed to, especially a mere 3 days after my husband left. But I just want a distraction. How hard it is to make good decisions sometimes! I know it’s not … Continue reading →

Day 2: Still haven’t spoken to M since he left. Damn, that’s a bitch. And I can’t believe it’s really getting easier. I still want to respond to the emails he’s sent me, and I do, of course, wonder how … Continue reading →

Can we fix this? Can we save us? I hate to be stupid, but dammit I love you. It’s that simple for me. And I know you love me. You’re not the asshole you look like right now. I know … Continue reading →

The finality of it all the hardest to bear Dreams shattered like mirrors falling Seeing reflections of us in each piece Knowing we’ve been shattered too I can’t buy enough forgiveness Can’t steal a chest of happiness Left to pick … Continue reading →

I watch as my soul tries to sneak into your bags Nuzzled up safely between the red sweatshirt I got you for Christmas And your socks I call to it softly: come back to me But it’s so scared of … Continue reading →

The finality of it all the hardest to bear Dreams shattered like mirrors falling Seeing reflections of us in each piece Knowing we’ve been shattered too I can’t buy enough forgiveness Can’t steal a chest of happiness Left to pick … Continue reading →

I watch as my soul tries to sneak into your bags Nuzzled up safely between the red sweatshirt I got you for Christmas And your socks I call to it softly: come back to me But it’s so scared of … Continue reading →

It’s M-O day. Move out, move on, call it what you like…it’s all the same. It should be interesting if nothing else. I hope it’s not too bad…butI know I’ll survive it, which is more than I’ve known most days … Continue reading →

Don’t underestimate the power of getting hit on to make your day. Well at least to make my day. I *never* get hit on. Never. It’s almost sad really. I think this could quite possibly be the first time this … Continue reading →

I’m sick of being sad and whining about all this shit that’s happening to me. Time to step it up and dust the cobwebs off all the positive thoughts and put them to good use. It’s a beautiful day, and … Continue reading →

If we’d had sex that night I’d probably be pregnant. It was a 2 days before the end came. I knew we weren’t getting along perfectly, but things didn’t seem bad at all. And I knew I was ovulating. I … Continue reading →

…or maybe just a book on how to get over love. Ok, so tell me again…when does it start getting better? I can’t even begin to fathom that it could take me ½ the time we were together to get … Continue reading →

Sometimes I close my eyes and only see the good times We’re walking on the beach, creating our monogram in shells Suddenly I realize it will never be like that again Lambkins and cabron and Mrs. S no longer exist! … Continue reading →

Sometimes I close my eyes and only see the good times We’re walking on the beach, creating our monogram in shells Suddenly I realize it will never be like that again Lambkins and cabron and Mrs. S no longer exist! … Continue reading →

You have no soul The spark inside you Ignites nothing inside me Complaining And whining My hairs stand on end Stop thinking you’re The center of my universe You have no soul No idea what makes me tick No desire … Continue reading →

This is a few months old, but the sentiment is generally the same. You have no soul The spark inside you Ignites nothing inside me Complaining And whining My hairs stand on end Stop thinking you’re The center of my … Continue reading →

Damn, I’m a grouchy ass bitch. I hate people who act like me. I can’t stand to be around negativity, and I feel like it’s coming out of my pores right now. I’m just mad at the world, and I … Continue reading →

What bothers me most right now is not that you are leaving, but why you are leaving. I’m done blaming myself and wishing I was thin and regretting rejecting you when you came back. What pisses me off now is … Continue reading →

I’ve accepted that it’s time to move on. It’s time to start my life again, and forget about trying to convince my love that he should be with me. After all he doesn’t feel the same. Why is it that … Continue reading →