Monthly Archives: December 2005

a long look

Posted on December 31, 2005 by

I’ve started this post before, but have never been able to finish it, so let me see if I can get it right this time. Alex once pointed out to me that my way of dealing with men closely resembles … Continue reading →

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my pimp name

Posted on December 31, 2005 by

I got this from Karri, and, unlike her, I am pleased. Your Pimp Name Is… Sweetness Glider What’s Your Pimp Name?

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no resolutions here

Posted on December 29, 2005 by

Co-worker:  You know I have this friend, and she’s like…overweight, you know…probably about 100 pounds if I had to guess…and she always complains about being overweight and I’m like do something about it then…. Me:  blank stare Co-worker:  Don’t complain … Continue reading →

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merry xmas to me

Posted on December 27, 2005 by

My present to myself: And no, 2 cats does not make me the cat-lady.  Cute, isn’t she?  I’m still undecided on her name, but she’s so sweet and little that I’ve been calling her little friend.  Don’t worry, that won’t … Continue reading →

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confirming the obvious

Posted on December 21, 2005 by

I found this on the Pretty Face and it’s soo me. The Romantic Princess You are absolutely in love with love! Charming,romantic, and feminine are all words that describe you. You are a huge flirt and know howto use your … Continue reading →

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boundaries

Posted on December 20, 2005 by

Alex was always getting on me about setting boundaries in my life, mostly in my relationship with M.  I always have trouble doing it…Sammy didn’t call him cow eyes for nothing, one look and I’m hooked.  Or one word.  Or … Continue reading →

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is the end still in sight

Posted on December 20, 2005 by

The three week break from classes is working very nicely for me.  it makes me long for this time next year, when I’ll finally be free of these chains.  This has been my burden for entirely too long, and the … Continue reading →

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fuck me twenty times

Posted on December 19, 2005 by

I should have seen it coming, but I guess I try too hard to see the good in people.  Not that I think that’s a bad thing, but you tend to get hurt more when you do.  It’s often difficult … Continue reading →

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the christmas gift

Posted on December 17, 2005 by

M told me about the book The Alchemist a few months ago and told me to run out and buy it.  I didn’t.  I am ashamed to admit that I hadn’t even heard of it before he told me.  I’m … Continue reading →

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missing xmas

Posted on December 17, 2005 by

I haven’t cried in months.  Literally months.  I’m not a big crier really.  When M left I cried more than I ever have in my life.  I was overtaken by tears.  But I don’t usually cry, unless it’s shedding a … Continue reading →

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i remember (selfish little bitch)

Posted on December 17, 2005 by

It’s especially hard this holiday season because I’m far away from all that is familiar, all that I love.  I find myself remembering my last Christmas with M.  I remembered the childish way I’d nag him about getting my presents … Continue reading →

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the M story

Posted on December 13, 2005 by

I started this blog in February mostly because I thought it would be fun to have a blog.  I’ve been writing since I was a young girl, but hadn’t really been in touch with that side since high school.  Getting … Continue reading →

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fa la la la la

Posted on December 12, 2005 by

My dental hygienist asked me last week if I celebrate Christmas.  I didn’t hesitate to respond “Oh yeah!” before realizing that saying that could possibly imply that I am a Christian. “Well, I celebrate the commercial aspect of Christmas,” I … Continue reading →

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ugh

Posted on December 7, 2005 by

I have been feeling really disconnected from my friends and family lately.  Part of this is due to some of the friendships I’ve been questioning lately, and the lack of intimacy I feel in these relationships.  The family is more … Continue reading →

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jewelry!!

Posted on December 3, 2005 by

My sister, AKA the AD, referred me to this site for really cute silver jewelry!  Check it out if you like silver.  The quality is better than it looks in the pictures.  So far I’ve gotten: AND For just $5.99 … Continue reading →

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k v. k

Posted on December 2, 2005 by

I didn’t even allow myself to think about what I was doing, I just did it.  I waited until the last business day of my vacation week, the last possible moment I could.  But I knew it had to be … Continue reading →

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purposeful screw-ups

Posted on December 1, 2005 by

The semester is coming to an end, finally.  I’m so happy about this.  Only 2 more to go after this, and possibly one class next summer.  I feel like I’ve been doing this forever.  In order to finish in December … Continue reading →

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for the love of Prof. Adorable

Posted on December 1, 2005 by

I arrived for my last encounter with Prof. Adorable looking plenty adorable myself, smelling great (RL Blue), and ready to enjoy my last moment alone with my crush.  We had our one-on-one conference, which would have been much better if … Continue reading →

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