Monthly Archives: January 2006

divorced, day 5

Posted on January 30, 2006 by

Still no tears in sight as day 5 of being divorced comes to a close.  Quite frankly this has just been too easy.  Whether it’s the numbing, which I’ve clearly been doing, or just old fashioned time healing wounds – … Continue reading →

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so hard to say goodbye

Posted on January 26, 2006 by

I sat in the courtroom trying to make myself cry.  Sometimes I do this in situations I think warrant tears when I have none.  It was really hard to do with M sitting next to me, calm as could be, … Continue reading →

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the end

Posted on January 26, 2006 by

Well, today’s the big day.  The day I’ve dreaded for 10 long months, the day I hoped would never come.  Somehow I think I was caught up in the thought that maybe, just maybe, M would come to his senses … Continue reading →

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nutritional eval – check

Posted on January 24, 2006 by

I was weighed today when I went to see the nutritionist.  Lucky me, I was only up 4 pounds from the last time I weighed, which was over 2 months ago.  I thought I’d be up at least 10.  I … Continue reading →

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i’m sick

Posted on January 24, 2006 by

The flu finally caught me.  I feel like I’ve been beaten with a stick.

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a mission

Posted on January 22, 2006 by

Alex asked me in our last session to try to write a mission statement for my life.  He said that he was cautious in bringing it up, because the last time he brought it up, many months ago, I apparently … Continue reading →

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8 days

Posted on January 18, 2006 by

M is on his way over.  It’s weird thinking that next week we will be divorced.  The end.  For real this time.  Weird. This is also probably our last night together, as far as the whole hanging out thing goes.  … Continue reading →

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a mouse in my house!

Posted on January 16, 2006 by

A freaking mouse.  I saw it 3 times, felt it once.  The cats are definitely not doing their jobs.  I knew those damn fake mice were a bad idea.  Now they don’t know what to do when the time is … Continue reading →

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friday links

Posted on January 13, 2006 by

This isn’t something I normally do, but what the hell.   My favorite sites this week: I’m Just About to Get Skinny – Amazing. Literotica – Ok, so you have to search a bit to find the good stuff, but it … Continue reading →

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it’s my turn

Posted on January 11, 2006 by

My damn router died on me, so I have been aimlessly typing on my laptop, but unable to post anything.  I finally got smart and hooked the DSL directly to the desktop, so I could post a quick update.  Ok, … Continue reading →

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ahhhh….

Posted on January 6, 2006 by

Having Alex back is like a dream come true.  Here’s what came of the session on Thursday: I’m gonna have to stop smoking the p-o-t again. I have issues with feeling like every person I come into contact with is … Continue reading →

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the hills are alive

Posted on January 4, 2006 by

Today’s news was much better than yesterday’s.  The deevorce will finally be happening – on January 26.  Only 3 weeks away.  Wow.  I can’t even begin to think about that right now.  It’s still a good thing in my head.  … Continue reading →

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bullshit

Posted on January 3, 2006 by

I’ve been waiting for today for 2 months straight.  You remember, of course, the first day I could call the surgeon’s office for an appointment.  And I’m sure you also remember how I wasn’t going to get excited about this … Continue reading →

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i quit

Posted on January 2, 2006 by

and not because it’s the damn new year.  Rather because the potential surgeon’s website says, “it doesn’t make sense to treat the number two cause of preventable death (obesity) if you continue the number one cause of preventable death (smoking)."  … Continue reading →

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