Monthly Archives: July 2006

regrouping

I fucked up.  Again.  With tony.  Again.  Big fucking surprise.  He’s my antichrist.  Seriously.  I can’t get what it is that makes me so ga-ga over this big piece of shit assface that he is. Last night’s blog was written … Continue reading

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vacation from serious

I’ve noticed lately that I’ve gotten away from reflecting much here and moved more toward telling details of my life.  I don’t think I like that so much.  In the past couple days I’ve been lucky to have 2 close … Continue reading

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vacation from serious

I’ve noticed lately that I’ve gotten away from reflecting much here and moved more toward telling details of my life.  I don’t think I like that so much.  In the past couple days I’ve been lucky to have 2 close … Continue reading

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friday is almost here

Thank you all for weighing in on my dilemma to share or not to share the blog with the new dude.  I, personally, thought it would be kinda nice, but I figure everyone else can’t be wrong.  So I will … Continue reading

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friday is almost here

Thank you all for weighing in on my dilemma to share or not to share the blog with the new dude.  I, personally, thought it would be kinda nice, but I figure everyone else can’t be wrong.  So I will … Continue reading

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sharing secrets

There’s an interesting situation brewing with Green Guy.  We had another very interesting 2 hour conversation last night, causing me to once again sleep through BOTH alarms set to wake me for my 5:30 walk with MB.  I woke up … Continue reading

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moving right along

Well, all that worrying about my date with Tony was for nothing because he ended up canceling.  He said he was tired and wanted to reschedule for Tuesday or Wednesday night (my choice, apparently).  Yeah, no thanks.  I think I … Continue reading

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help with jeans needed

I fall fast.  And I don’t want to anymore.  And then I react and freak and get obsessed and I can barely keep it together.  And I can’t stand things moving slowly.  I want them to go fast.  It’s familiar, … Continue reading

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morning rambles

I feel better today.  I woke up nice and early, no alarms, just a nice storm and Mr. Bojangles to ease me out of dream land.  It was pleasant.  And I just noticed that I really do feel better today.  … Continue reading

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that’s a real date, right?

David told me today that he doesn’t like Tony.  And it really, really bothered me.  I know there’s a possibility that I’m being stupid about Tony, but I really don’t think I am.  I think we just got off to … Continue reading

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jumbled

Saw Alex today, and felt like I left with my tail between my legs.  And bless his heart, he didn’t do anything to make me feel bad or anything.  I just made me feel bad about my activities.  Wow.  And … Continue reading

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jumbled

Saw Alex today, and felt like I left with my tail between my legs.  And bless his heart, he didn’t do anything to make me feel bad or anything.  I just made me feel bad about my activities.  Wow.  And … Continue reading

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gay Tony II

Oh, Tony.  Why do I have to have such a crush on your gay ass?  And why can’t you come out?  That would make it easier.  You are too hot.  I love looking at you.  And I love fucking you.  … Continue reading

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gay Tony II

Oh, Tony.  Why do I have to have such a crush on your gay ass?  And why can’t you come out?  That would make it easier.  You are too hot.  I love looking at you.  And I love fucking you.  … Continue reading

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pics

There are some new pics from the weekend in the life album on the password protected site, including a pic f MCS, if you are interested in seeing him.  LOL  The rest were taken Saturday night, I think.  I think … Continue reading

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gay Tony

Ok, so Tony may or may not be gay.  It’s not as definitive as I made it sound in the post the other day.  I mean, I totally think he is most of the time, but then sometimes I don’t. … Continue reading

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gay Tony

Ok, so Tony may or may not be gay.  It’s not as definitive as I made it sound in the post the other day.  I mean, I totally think he is most of the time, but then sometimes I don’t. … Continue reading

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shut up

my emotions are all over the place.  Why?  Because stupid me hasn’t taken the Lexies in 3 days again.  Ooops.  Damn.  Now I need to stop wondering why getting stood up last night bothered me so.  Notice that was past … Continue reading

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it’s a bitch

Karma certainly is a bitch.  And I’ve said this before, will say it again, I’m sure.  Haven’t we all.  Yeah.  Well, here goes… So I had lunch today with a new, random internet dude.  He was shorter than I’d normally … Continue reading

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dreamland

I love Sunday mornings with coffee and some p-o-t.  But ya’ll know that.  Today is the first day in weeks that I have absolutely nothing planned and can just sit on my ass and not do a damn thing.  Revive.  … Continue reading

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