Monthly Archives: November 2009

“When I get older I think I’m gonna marry a man with a job.” “Oh yeah? Why is that?” I asked her, laughing, but not out loud because I wanted a candid response. “Because I don’t think I want to … Continue reading →

From The AA: U always look great in pink..but I think that blue u have on looks just as good! U look cute….

I know this is probably going to sound stupid, but I feel like my happy self today is kinda betraying the sad self of the weekend. Weird, no? Yeah, I’m a conundrum at every turn. I feel oddly ok with … Continue reading →

I drank more wine this weekend than I’m comfortable admitting. I shed more tears than I have in the past year….probably two years. I did nothing but drink, cry, sleep and watch FaLaLaLa Lifetime xmas movies. And now I’m done. … Continue reading →

He called, but my phone has been on silent all weekend to avoid hearing it. It’s been good. I’d talked at length with Ex-Husband this morning and he told me to not talk to him, to tell him I need … Continue reading →

big ones. happy ones. real ones. ones I want to come back to me.

I was numb all day Saturday. I didn’t cry, I didn’t hurt, I didn’t call him as he requested in his text. Instead I watched TV, slept, watched more TV, slept more, cuddled with the babies, slept more. It was … Continue reading →

I’ve been waiting to get home so I could fall apart. Totally and completely. And stupid Old Uncle Marvin had to go and drag his feet finishing the work we had to do for our regulatory audit, so I ended … Continue reading →

I feel like I want to throw up. It’s never ok to cry at work, I tell myself as I fight back the tears that want so badly to come. I can’t wait to get to my bed so I … Continue reading →

I’m devastated really. Confused. Hurt. And really, really confused. I think he is, too. We sat down to talk and he told me he just didn’t see a relationship right now. Timing. He’s not at a place to provide for … Continue reading →

Just friends. Doesn’t feel like he’s in a place to provide for a relationship. Tears. Not good enough. I hurt.

I’ve said it before and I will say it again – as much as I looove baking cupcakes it totally stresses me out. When they’re for an order, I mean. I’m so concerned with making sure they are perfect and … Continue reading →

My horoscope this morning told me it’s ok to be late for work. Do you think they notified my boss of such? I am so excited to see The AA tonight. And be sober the whole night I’m with him. … Continue reading →

I love my dogs. I love my dogs. I love my dogs. Well, right now I kinda hate them. Turn my back for 4 seconds and shit all goes to hell. I was just looking at pictures of myself on … Continue reading →

Last week Will told me he was cancelling Thanksgiving. I was so sad when he told me because I was looking forward to it, and also because I didn’t really want to spent the day alone making a huge ol’ … Continue reading →