I know this is probably going to sound stupid, but I feel like my happy self today is kinda betraying the sad self of the weekend. Weird, no? Yeah, I’m a conundrum at every turn.
I feel oddly ok with everything today. I don’t feel like it’s over. I feel like I over-reacted at what he said. I don’t think he was saying we should stop, just that we still take time getting to know each other, building the friendship, not committing just yet. And that seems ok. As The Canadian said this morning it’s only been 3 months. There’s nothing wrong with where he’s at after this short amount of time. And it made sense to me.
So maybe I just needed a cry weekend for the fun of it. And now I feel a lil stupid because I think I got ridiculously emotional for nothin. And by ridiculously I mean REE-DICK-YOU-LESS-LEEE. I see it now. And ya’ll were nice enough to not tell me I was being retarded. So nice.
