working the room

I’ve never believed in doing any sort of ass kissing or schmoozing to get where I want in the workplace. My work has always spoken for itself, and I’m pretty damn easy to get along with so people generally like me. And I’m not an ass-kisser by nature. At all.
So this morning I realized that [...]

lil victories

Last weekend while I was getting ridiculously drunk at Will’s house his boyfriend said that he’d eaten by himself for the first time. I was pretty proud of myself for doing the solo movie thing for the first time, but aside from the one time I’d studied through lunch by myself I’d never eaten alone. [...]

new things

The new job is so far the greatest thing since sliced bread…or in my case warm, crusty french bread with real butter (mmmmm). I finally got some work to do today and it was actually kinda fun…I think I’m gonna like this. And the hot IT guy I’m going to refer to as FBD (Future [...]

I could only be happier if I were tan

“Who is the only boy I love?” I asked him as I climbed into my bed and under the covers. It was 7:41 and I was already in my pajamas – cute hot pink pants and a white v-neck. “You, baby!  You!  The white fluffy one!”
I pulled my Puff close to me as he rolled [...]

the newest journey

And so tomorrow I will set off to begin the next journey…back to Corporate America. It seems like so long ago that I left, and I never dreamed I’d actually be excited to go back, but just trying on my outfit for tomorrow got me feeling all giddy. I’ll be in a real office!  I’ll [...]

party hats and hoooolihoops

After writing everything I did early yesterday morning about the situation with Jen, and then the way the rest of my day went, I realize now that part of the thing I must’ve needed in the situation was to release all of that built up hurt in writing. I needed to finally release those tears [...]

twilight zone

Is this for-fucking-real?  I feel like my life is an episode of punk’d.  And not one of those episodes where you laugh your ass off and think Ashton is brilliant, but rather one where you sit back and watch the train wreck, but compose that letter beginning Dear Mr. Kutcher, in your head begging him [...]

i hate my life

Or so it seems, anyway.
Tonight it became completely clear to me that what I need is a job. Before it was 99.9% about the money; now it is more about the stability, structure and something worthwhile to fill my empty space/time. Yeah, I still need the money, but after this weekend, and then today, it [...]

9-1-1

The anxiety has lessened since getting the car fixed, and thank something lovely for my little sis for helping out on this one, so I didn’t understand why I started having trouble breathing and swallowing as I was driving to Bart’s house yesterday afternoon. I tried to breathe through it, tried convincing myself that it [...]

happy new year

I guess it’s time for the dreaded and requisite New Years post. Damn it. I mean, it’s in my head, but doesn’t writing it down start to make you hold yourself to a different level of accountability? I mean I want these things to be reality, but the truth is I believe in myself little [...]

bad ideas

I swear to the soles of my shoes I may just scream if I have to hear “Daaadyyy!” again today. You see, Kids Mom thought it would be a grand idea for me to bring Littlest One to Whiny Older One’s little xmas program at nursery school. To put it simply – she was horribly [...]

the little children

The sound of his voice changed completely the minute she walked out the door. He didn’t even wait to hear the garage door close before dropping the whine that was grating on my every last nerve from the second I came upstairs from my basement apartment for another day of kid watching. I refuse to [...]

the price of being unemployed

Sitting in the unemployment office yesterday reminded me that I really shouldn’t be “unemployed”. I guess I’m not really since I work at daBucks, but nevertheless I should be working a high paying corporate gig, shouldn’t I? I should be back to working my way up that ladder to create stability for the day that [...]