i’m sweatin him

ON him might be more accurate, though.
When he came down to visit, and thank me 100 more times, this afternoon I got a hot flash to end all hot flashes. I was sweating. Minutes before I was not sweating. Seconds after he left I was not sweating. While he [...]

gratefulness

Doesn’t it seem like I spend a lot of time worrying about how I’m doing with this sweet boy? And then doesn’t it seem like just as soon as I freak I get a moment returned to me that has me giggling like a school girl? Yeah, new pattern I see.
Good reminder to [...]

the cheese factor

It’s been established and accepted that I’m ultra-cheesetastic, right? Ok, good.
So today my cute African Accountant is off work for school related stuff. He’ll be back tomorrow, but then he’s off Thursday and Friday to study for the GMAT. I had this brilliant (used loosely, as I’m feeling anything but brilliant right [...]

do it my way

I’m a spoiled brat. I mean I’m cool as long as you don’t tell me “no”. Or ignore me. I can do it to you all day long, but for you to do it to me? Ummm no. Not cool.
So The African Accountant is apparently trying to give me a [...]

today was a good day

And now the song is stuck in me head.
I sent AA a text this morning to tell him good luck with his interview for a job with a big accounting firm this afternoon. This was something we’d talked about Saturday night and I could tell he was touched I remembered. I gave him advice – [...]

no sharing allowed

When I got home yesterday I found an over-excited pup who wanted love from his Mama and my friend Allison cleaning my kitchen. It was like a dream come true. For a brief minute I wondered if maybe I need a wife instead of a husband.
After changing my clothes I set out to make the [...]

living to be tan

Allison spent the weekend with me, which was fun.  We shopped Saturday afternoon and I bought a bunch of baking crap, then went for Mexican last night.  I hate to shop; I love Mexican food.  It was fun having a girly day.
She slept till noon Sunday, so when she got up I was ready to [...]

delicious squared

Ok, so we’ve established that I love to cook. Simple enough. But there’s more to it. And I don’t mean baking/cupcakes/talking about food or even eating. I love, love, love, love, love cooking for people…especially when said people happen to be a tall, dark, super handsome man who rocks my world [...]

starting new

I was nearly moved to tears as I walked around the big, empty apartment. Not just because it was cuter than I remembered (like most men in my life), but also because this symbolizes a new beginning for me…in a rather big way.
It was a little over two years ago when the shit hit the [...]

anxiety be damned

I heard my text message sound around 745 last night and my heart skipped a beat for a second. “It’s probably Will telling me where he’s leaving the key,” I thought. “Or Lil Bear.” I rolled my eyes at the thought of Lil Bear. But alas, it was none of the above. It was [...]

heh heh heh

Oh, Lil Bear. How young you are, my little friend. I know it hurt your feelings when I nonchalantly put it out there that I’m seeing someone even though I’m not. I could see the little break in your smile as you stood at the doorway to my cube trying to be charming and seeing [...]

i think his name is Riesling

I poured a glass of wine and sat down to read some blogs to distract myself.  Truth is, I can’t help but think about what will happen when Mr. Delicious comes home, but I’m sooo not supposed to be thinking about that.  I’ve already made the pact with myself that I won’t contact him first [...]

anxiety and anorgasmia

What a combo!
Friday was a high anxiety day, and I couldn’t figure out why. That’s always the worst part for me. I know my 2 main triggers – guilt and money. And I was feeling pain related to neither of those, so why was I having trouble swallowing? Why did I feel so off? [...]

lessons in work romances

1:45 pm
Text from Allison: Omg…come see me
“So just how vested is Barista in that little bear from downstairs?” The woman sitting at the end of my row asked Allison after lunch today.
“Oh, not at all. They’re just friends.” Thank you, Allison!!!
“Good because I saw him at lunch with the new intern today.”
Yes, that would be [...]

random stuff

There’s a lot to do before I move, and I’m so grateful for the friends who have offered to help, which will save me a ton of money. It really makes me feel warm inside knowing people are willing to give up a few hours of their weekend to do what I consider to be [...]

more of the best sex ever

Every inch of my body hurts.  My thighs are the worst, my neck and shoulders a close second.  I walked my first time at bat, which was lucky as hell considering I’d already had 2 strikes and I was freaking out.  I need to learn to relax and I think this will all be a [...]

i finally had a stalker and didn’t even know it!

Ok, so I’m fickle.  It’s true.  And a crush/interest/relationship even…if I were to ever have one again…can turn on and off as quickly as the light in my apartment.  So after spending the night Sunday with BSE I was totally smitten.  And after the texts he sent me Monday morning my head buried itself a [...]

he makes me think

Will is always the voice of reason/reality when it comes to men, so it shouldn’t have been any surprise to hear him say that I was fooling myself if I really believed what Lil Bear said about the not flirting with Allison. He told me to stay away, move on, don’t waste my time…although his [...]

pass the mint juleps!

Because it is Kentucky Derby day, after all. I’ve never had a mint julep, actually, but it sounds kinda cute. It’s kinda funny to me that every time I think about wanting something food or drink related it’s always followed by the thought, “I can make that when I move to my new place.”. You’d [...]

crushing…hard

“You better not suck and mess up my softball game.” I recognized the voice before even turning around, so I turned on the charm when I really wanted to tell him to go away.
“And what would give you the crazy idea that I suck?” I asked him, turning around in my chair and crossing [...]