scared to really say or feel it

This post by Babs is what first inspired this post. Second inspiration – therapy. Jesiiiis knows I need it!  And that’s why I keep going. I love it, I need it, I learn and grow from it.
So, sure – I’ve thought a time or 2 that my weight has something to do with my singleness. [...]

puppy love

“Don’t touch me!” I jumped as his fingers lightly brushed over my cheek and he jerked his hand back, chuckling at me.
“What’s wrong, Barista?”
“You can’t touch me. It’s been too long.” I sat on the edge of the couch and looked back at him. He looked so adorable and I felt that familiar tingling in [...]

and we drank the night away

until i passed out in my bed and didn’t even hear him leave.  oh well.
Award goes to Cutie McBarista for being a great kisser.  One of the best.  The rest….eh.  Ok. 
It’s kinda weird to hook up with one of your great friends.  But it’s nice to wake up the next morning and not feel bad [...]

men are like dogs…

…If you chase them they will run.
Or so says Mr. Delicious, anyway. And judging by our interactions this seems to be completely true.
He said this when we were talking about his crazy co-worker and her f’d up relationship with her boyfriend, but of course I related it to our situation. Things have been going soo [...]

girls’ night in

Jessica came over last night to bake cupcakes, drink wine and eat. Instead we drank wine, talked, drank more wine, she danced around the living room, drank more wine, ate the yummy spinach cheese puffs and spring rolls, drank more wine and then figured out the answer to yesterday’s question.
Mr. Delicious was texting me and [...]

delicious squared

Ok, so we’ve established that I love to cook. Simple enough. But there’s more to it. And I don’t mean baking/cupcakes/talking about food or even eating. I love, love, love, love, love cooking for people…especially when said people happen to be a tall, dark, super handsome man who rocks my world [...]

don’t judge me

Or call me a drunk.
Buuuut….
How do I say this….
Ummmm…..I kinda accidentally passed out during sex yesterday afternoon/evening. Like passed out from too much wine coupled with exhaustion.
Yeah….
And I didn’t even know it until he told me…
Well, it wasn’t actual sex, but while I was giving him head. Don’t know if that’s better. Or worse.
But it’s [...]

the stars in her eyes

When I was a young girl I used to wish on the stars…for love to come. And by young girl I mean late teens/early 20s. It seems I’ve always been wishing for love, yes. So tonight as I stood on my balcony and looked up to see the stars I was reminded of this, and [...]

get it together

I think everyone who knows me knows how much I trust Ex-Husband.  I know to never go to him when I need a little coddling (girls are wayyy better for this) and that he’ll never, ever, ever tell me what I want to hear – only the reality of the situation.  But when I need [...]

don’t be a saboteur, barista

I kinda freaked today.  Well, it started last night and ended this morning.  The post I made this morning was telling.  I was trippin out.  I felt like I’d made a huge mistake with Mr. Delicious, and it made me start to disconnect, to freak the fuck out.
So what had happened was…I drank a little [...]

he rocks my world

Everyone who knows me knows that I hate the phone. I hate talking on the phone. I hate calling people. I rarely listen to voicemails, rarely return calls. And because of all of the above my phone never rings. Because everyone knows. I’ll respond to texts in a heartbeat. The blackberry is perfect for texting [...]

it’s all so simple

It truly amazed me how many men were checking me out while I was driving Will’s car. Now I’m pretty much 100% convinced I’m still single by curse of this silly jeep. Crazy, but really. It seems that if I had a hot little car like Will’s I’d be happily shacked up…and knocked up…by now. [...]

peaks and valleys

I’m not sure if I’m over-thinking things (as per uj, you know) or if maybe I was just reading into all that was happening with Mr. Delicious (aka BSE). I had a funny feeling about things Saturday and Sunday, and while I joke about being psychic, I think it’s my gut. So then the analysis [...]

the first date

Hopefully it won’t be the last. Or maybe hopefully it will be the last first date. Yeah, I said it.
After a few late nights this week I was dying to get out of work Friday to go meet sweet Mr. Delicious (formerly known as Best Sex Ever and no, the name change is NOT because [...]

the smitten kitten

I’ve known BSE for a long enough time now, he knows the good and bad about me, yet I still get nervous around him. I don’t get particularly expressive. I answer all his questions honestly, and he asks a TON of questions, but I don’t offer too much emotion relating to him. This isn’t unique [...]

more of the best sex ever

Every inch of my body hurts.  My thighs are the worst, my neck and shoulders a close second.  I walked my first time at bat, which was lucky as hell considering I’d already had 2 strikes and I was freaking out.  I need to learn to relax and I think this will all be a [...]

closeness

A couple weeks ago…like 6, maybe?… when Adonis asked to read some of what I’d written i went off in search of something that would be interesting, funny, the uj.  What I found was something I’d written about Best Sex Ever.  Funny thing was, later that night I talked to Best Sex Ever when he [...]

he makes me think

Will is always the voice of reason/reality when it comes to men, so it shouldn’t have been any surprise to hear him say that I was fooling myself if I really believed what Lil Bear said about the not flirting with Allison. He told me to stay away, move on, don’t waste my time…although his [...]

down the lanes

I spent the day today with Bart. I needed to do some laundry, and I think he was feeling guilty about cancelling on me yesterday so when I talked to him this morning as I was doing the patio thing again and he asked me to come over to do my laundry then go to [...]

restraint

My legs were tight, my head pounding after eating a super late lunch because I forgot I had a meeting yesterday afternoon, so I skipped the gym last night. I felt bad about it the whole way home, but when I got to the Mexican restaurant where I was meeting Serious George for dinner I [...]