is anything worse

I’m determined to take this trip, and having a goal has me re-examining my budget.  That’s a horrible word for me, bt-dubs – BUDGET.  Ick.  But when I looked at the trends in my spending and saw that I’ve spent $1952 on eating out and groceries in the last 3 months I kinda got sick.  [...]

cutting it

Inspired by the writer of the only blog I’ve ever read written by another single girl in ATL, I’ve decided that I’m going to take on the challenge to lose 20 pounds by August 26th.  Rock on, bitches.  Wait till you see this hot ass former barista in a month and a half. 
This conveniently comes [...]

harsh judgments

This one is for you, The Therapist.
The smoking crew. Ok, so today I had a little brush with a panic attack. I haven’t in weeks, so it threw me wayyy off. I went and grabbed Allison, my work friend, and we went for a little walk, which resulted in smoking a cigarette in the parking [...]

commenting

My bed welcomed me at 930 last night as I watched the end of Intervention. I read recently in Psychology Today that most people who have addictions kick them when they feel like it…on their own. They were talking about all kinds of addictions…smoking, drugs, whatever. And I with I could quit the cigs again [...]

stepping out

One of my old hook-ups, Adonis, contacted me recently, so we’ve been chatting. It’s been over a year since an actual hook-up took place with him, but I have fond memories of that time…for many reasons. For one, we had some great sex. And I remember how much I loved that I could smoke a [...]

psychic or…

…just finally recognizing game?  I was so thrilled today to see why I was having a weird feeling about the MHITG situation…HE’S MARRIED. Yeah. So, knock that one off my list. I was so disgusted when I got his email, but glad he’d honestly answered my question. And I let the emailing drop then. I [...]

I could only be happier if I were tan

“Who is the only boy I love?” I asked him as I climbed into my bed and under the covers. It was 7:41 and I was already in my pajamas – cute hot pink pants and a white v-neck. “You, baby!  You!  The white fluffy one!”
I pulled my Puff close to me as he rolled [...]

numb

I drank a big glass of wine from one of the wine glasses Will gave me for my birthday before talking to Cutie McBarista, and another while talking to him. I smoked 2 cigarettes during our phone conversation. And after telling him why I was so upset, and getting the opposite reaction from the one [...]

why is this happening to me

Ok, so I used to be a daily pot smoker. For like the past 4 years with only short breaks here and there. And by “used to be” I mean up until about 3 weeks ago when I had my first panic attack. I attributed the attack to the smoking, since I’d been high at [...]

happy new year

I guess it’s time for the dreaded and requisite New Years post. Damn it. I mean, it’s in my head, but doesn’t writing it down start to make you hold yourself to a different level of accountability? I mean I want these things to be reality, but the truth is I believe in myself little [...]